My Solitude

There ends that beautiful dawn of endless love,
In utter misery and sorrow….
I hoped that it was true …
Eternal.
But it all turned out to be nothing but a joke;
I am yet again, a perfect fool.
I smile bravely….
Trying to prove that I knew it all along…
That I knew it was all one perfectly planned prank!
That I was letting him fool me…
But deep down, I know that I love him …
I still do….
Hating the person you love the most;
It’s like killing every living component of your physical frame..
It’s like sucking out every drop of joy after reaching the utmost heights of happiness….

I smile….
Bravely.
I say nothing …
He has now turned his back to me…
But I smile..
Bravely.
Tears roll down my cheeks but I hide them…
Like I always do…
Camouflaging emotions…
My best ability…

But my heart is breaking apart…
You have made a fool out of me….
No.
I have made a fool of myself…

I walk out of the room…
The glass doors mock me….
I feel lost …
Nobody there to leave spools of wool for me,
So that I do not lose my way amidst the nasty maze of this vicious world…..
Nobody there to hold my hands and tell me it’s going to be all right…
No warm embraces waiting out there to make me feel better…
No one out there for me….
I am all alone…
Solitude is my only friend…
I walk along the deserted path of life….
Stumbling here and there…
All alone…
Nobody to give a helping hand…
Solitude is my god…
Solitude, my sun…
Solitude, my air…
Solitude! Thou art me!